If Only in my Dreams

I have this fantasy life where:

I feel completely comfortable in a bikini having my picture taken.

I'm the girl on the arm of that guy.

I don't have to worry every time I run my debit card.

I don't have to wonder where my boyfriend is or who he's with.

Running is a challenge, but not an insurmountable one.

I have the time to go to the beach.

My biggest worry is that my highlights are growing out.

I can travel. Just somewhere.

I can get a decent night's sleep.

My decisions are easy.

I don't do anything just because it's necessary for survival.

I don't feel like everyone I know is leaving me behind.

I can sit back and just enjoy every day.

Buying requisite books for school and uniforms for work isn't going to put me in debt of any kind.

I have a should to lean on.




I just want to rest. Just for a little while.